Monday, November 21, 2011

Running Out Of Words

PS0:  Post drafted on 28Oct , 2011

5 and half  years of routine , may sound monotonous , but i was institutionalized. A lot of me ..is left behind .
the word "routine" is  most hideous  way to sum it up ..but it makes  easier for me to believe to let go .

I was cleaning and segregating stuff.  I have been doing that for  days . Stuff .... emotionally,  i have been doing that for months .

Lot of clutter  lies around . Shopping bills , hundreds of earrings, papers and more papers , hundreds of kurtas  , perfume bottles , the rejected tops , half filled note books , wires ,  more wires and stationary. Some more wires , books , oils , liquids of various kinds , furniture , cups of all shapes , colors and a zillion pair of shoes......

Its good to go . Its good to go to find oneself , to track back the shaken individuality,  which ,  in the recent past one let  loose ,  allowed  to get influenced  quite easily .Prior to this , the initial half  decade, one possessed  rigid  opinions.But to grow and  to learn , one  took liberty  and projected the a malleable  child  to the world or shall one say  there was an addiction of some kind  and influences ....  ahhh and the child did learn a LOT .It was loved a lot , rejected . It was thrashed ,yet  was taken care . It was advised  and at times  looked down upon . Worshiped at times and forgotten otherwise.  It laughed a  lot , it cried.It was fun to be with  , yet boring at times .It traveled , scribbled  poetry, coded in java ,made wonderful friends , learnt about relations , about the world ,people . And then, a monitoring voice from within said - grow up , its time to take responsibility. Its time to give  . Its time to  move on.

"you have to completely immerse yourself into unfamiliar territory to understand yours".


PS1: Two bachalorate parties in row .
PS2: 48 hours and 4 hours of sleep and 5 shots of taquila .Yeah baby i know how to party .
PS3: 5 farewell parties in total .......damn you people , don't make it tougher for me !!
PS4: //Todo,  post  on big fat Indian weddings . Yeah lot of humor out there .

1 comment:

Yamini said...

"you have to completely immerse yourself into unfamiliar territory to understand yours".

Love that statement. Love the post.